Love You

Grandma,

I miss you! I wish you could come back...just for one day. Just to say hi and give me one more wise crack! I wish you knew how much you were missed. I wish you could just be back. I wish I knew then what I know now. I wish I could have really taken some big deep breaths. I wish that I could pause that time but then I would never have known Miss Audrey. Grandma do you know how much I think of you? Do you know how much I miss you? Do you know how much I just wish I could lay in bed and rest my sorrows on you? Do you know how much I really loved you? Grandma please help me to remember what you taught me. Please help me to remember all of your helpful sayings...This too shall pass and I did the best I could do at the time I could do it. I love you Grandma.

Love, Ashley

Go to Sleep!

Although I never get much sleep when Audrey is laying by me I love it! She will cuddle, visit and give me tons on eskimo kisses - anything to keep from taking a nap.

Never again.....

We had lunch with friends today and when our buffalo wings were brought to the table Audrey's eyes widened with disgust....POOP! Papa that's poop!
My Dad- No Audrey that's not poop that's chicken.
Audrey - No that's poop!
I will never again look at buffalo wings the same again!

These two have a very special bond! My Dad is away for a month at a time trucking but each time he comes over for a visit these two are inseparable! They play blocks, Audrey takes his money, the read and play kitchen. -It helps that he always brings yummy treats for her!

Classic Audrey

Parents are human. They make mistakes. I remember feeling like my parents were Mom and Dad and that when they became such they had a higher moral obligation to be perfect. I finally realized after my friends started having kids that parents are human! They make mistakes.

My hope is that someday Audrey will have a sense of humor, grace and the knowledge that although we make mistakes that we really love her.

I may or may not be feeling guilty about having to spank her/put her in time out....a lot. She is in the terrible two's after all! It doesn't help that Brett is SuperDad he is all fun and he isn't nearly as strict as I am....would it kill him to be the bad one?! Hahaha. I have already informed him that with our next child I get to be the favorite parent!!!!

Ashley...This is your life....

While in church today I ran across a saying in my scriptures...Service is like peeing your pants everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth.

Miss T asked one of the Elders why his name was Elder Gross. He replied that both his parents were Gross so he is Gross too. Hahahaha Goodness......

I need...

a new SD card. Every time I go to the store I manage to buy EVERYTHING but what I went in there for.

Everything is good...still working on getting my kiddo to pee in the pot and not on the floor. Brett starts a new job on the 2nd. Miss T is amazing. I am working on my inner Rachel Ray. Trying to make homemade meals and semi-homemade bread and cookies. We'll see if this crazy Wyoming lady can ever really be domesticated.

I'm pretty sure I am gonna be 80 years old in the nursing home pinching the cute male nurses bums. Ha ha ha I know you can see me doing that too!

Mamma is Happy!

Brett and I had the opportunity to watch the Blind Side last night. What an awesome movie!!!!! It really made me feel so blessed! Really. I think that sometimes I get caught up in the I WANT IT NOW mentality. My house isn't big enough, my family isn't happy enough, my clothes aren't good enough, my looks need improvement. How trivial! I have a place to rest my head, clothes on my back and food in my belly. Even more than that I have the love of my family.

I was also inspired. I really want to help others. I guess I will need to pray and feel out where I can help the most. For now though I would like to start with my own family. Really appreciating, loving and helping them.

I have been reading books by Wanda E. Brunstetter about Amish families which also have got me thinking. Every time I am moaning and groaning about the pile of laundry I know think "At least I have the wash machine to do the work!" She has a huge collection of books and they are all love stories. I LOVE them they give me all the sweet romantic stuff I crave without all the nasty stuff on TV....lol

The 80's are back so I'm good right?

I am trying to grow out my hair and for the time being I am rocking the Joan Jett look. -You know I Love Rock & Roll I feel like I should paint my nails black and wear a head band

Audrey does still wear a diaper at night. I thought she may have soaked her diaper the other night as I give her water to sleep with at night and a few times her diaper has leaked through. Pee is still going good but I have had to clean up #2 a few times....yuck. She saves it for nap time when she wears a diaper thankfully.

I really don't like giving her water at bedtime but if I say no I think of Kate Gosselin and that headline on the news "KATE WON'T EVEN GIVE HER KIDS WATER!" with the little girl crying her guts out.

I have really been thinking a lot about when TJ's truck was vandalized. Every time I drive past where it was parked I really think that someone had to see it. The area has a huge lamp post over it and it was right by the highway.

If I ever see anything like that I vow to report it.

Dang my effectiveness

Audrey is potty trained. Well 80% potty trained. With this comes 10:35 wakings saying I GOTTA PEE! She holds true to her word each time but by 11:15pm I am just pulling her into bed with us.

I toss and turn and toss and turn and then Audrey ends up sleeping sideways right where my head is supposed to be. Then I feel a huge wet spot and I'm thinking that I have been sleeping in pee. Great. Apparently I am the drooler or all droolers because my kid was dry. Still - ick! I slept on the very edge of the bed with the very edge of the blanket. Freezing, cramped and laying in a nasty drool spot.

When I asked Audrey if she will be sleeping with us until she is fourteen she replied in all seriousness "Yup".